Each day that passes by, I notice the littlest things that grow and evolve in each of my children.
For instance,
It seems that as soon as my newly six year old daughter got her ears pierced, she turned into a little lady. She talks so proper and just acts...grown. It makes me smile but also makes my heart breaks a little inside that she's grown so fast. It doesn't seem possible that my first born, my little seven pounder is now 42 pounds and in 1st grade. Her life up until now has been slow motion and I can remember every one of her stages like it was yesterday. As soon as Abigail came along, the world started spinning faster and time slipped from my hands.
Abigail, the chubby buddha baby weighing 9 pounds 6 ounces is somehow...3. Her stages passed me like the snap of my fingers. *SNAP* so quick. Although I remember a lot of her baby-hood too it almost seems that with every kid on board, the faster life seems to go. I mean, I went from 21 to 26 and I still don't know how the hell that happened. Abigail is such a little tom boy and gives me hell. I love it because thats the spitting image of me and what I put MY parents through. Holy hell am I in for a ride when she turns pre-teen. She speaks so well now . Just the other day she said "actually mom" and my mouth dropped. How did my kid learn all this so quickly? Just another one that aged so quickly...it keeps getting more and more depressing that they are entering these new stages and will never look back. No longer will they be my babies but my girls, preteens, teens,graduates, ....sigh...holy...toledo. Just when I think it'll all be ok and I draw in a huge deep breathe...oh yeah, anxiety attack all over again. My boys...they aren't quite my little preemies anymore.
Max- Such a vibrant little boy. the smile that reminds me so much of his older sister, kayleigh. His world revolves around me still. I cant complain because its really NOT that far away that the "I don't need you to do that for me anymore mom" stage will peek from behind the wall. I already see it with max. My once itsy bitsy 5 lb 3 oz preemie is all over the place. He NEEDS to pull up standing on everything and NEEDS to show me he can and will conquer those stairs. If I let him. No. I don't want to . I mean, I do but i don't want him growing up. It's inevitable but none-the-less it'll happen whether I like it or not. Max conquered his sippy cup also just a few nights ago and loves clapping "yay" or waving "hello" every chance he gets to.
Does he need help crawling over to that...heck no, he'll use his brother, Micah as a step stool. Poor micah. He hates that. I don't blame him. I'd hate it if another person my same age crawled on top of me to get to something without my permission. My dear sweet Micah-roni. He is such a lover and I don't think he'll ever be a fighter. He's got his dad in him for sure. Looking at him I see Abigail. Its funny how Max resembles Kayleigh as a baby and Micah resembles Abby. Micah learned temper tantrums and fake cries. Yes, this little theatrical display everyday he knows how to win me over. I spoil my babies. If there is such thing as to spoil a baby...ever. I spoil them with love and cuddles. Because a kid,baby, infant can never get too many snuggles. Micah crawls and follows max everywhere. It's like a train and caboose effect. If i go to the bathroom...there it is peeking out from the corner of the door...the M&M train :D . As cuddly as Micah is , he also has an independent streak of not wanting me to feed him anymore. He wants to do EVERYTHING by himself unless he's just feeling lazy.
You would never think looking at my boys now that they were even preemies to begin with. in 3 days my babies will be 10 months. I hate saying it, i hate seeing it, i hate thinking that my babies are gone and these are the beginnings of them turning into little men. I've survived almost the first year with not only twins...but 4 kids. I feel accomplished. Who can say they've done that at 26? however, my body and soul feels older than 26. Shhh, we wont go there ;) We can go into how I am coping though ....
I am mixed. I have a mixture of emotions running around in my heart. Glad, estatic, blessed,sad, lazy and peaceful. I can break them all down too. None of it depressing in the sense that I'm "alone" because we all know with 4 kids that IMPOSSIBLE! haha (a little humor) . Im glad my kids are all so healthy and wonderful. Estatic that my life has been so BLESSED. I am sad that I will never again have the feeling of meeting a new blessing from inside my womb and holding a newborn to my chest again (until its my turn to be a grandmother). Lazy, well hell Im sure why you could figure out why i feel lazy. wouldn't you??? :D and peaceful because no matter the hardships, I feel on top of the world. I feel like I can do anything, and i will to the best of my ability. So I guess its no where but up from here...New beginnings on new stages. Life is so beautiful. With that said, here are some pictures for you all to enjoy <3
xoxo
Lia & fam
I've made it almost a year!
I can't even , I just....there's no words for how fast time has flown and how much love i have for these little guys. They've improved our lives and brought everyone closer.
8 months of sleepless nights, colds, happy smiles and cries. 8 months of...nothing but love.
WHere to even begin?
Micah-roni: What a sweet boy. He has grown to favor his daddy. Although, mommy is still his #1 comforter, he just loves to be with his daddy. He smiles non stop and at the moment , has just about conquered the crawling! He loves his binky and will play with it and put it in his own mouth which is so cute to watch. His appetite is amazing and he loves every baby food I have tried with him. He laughs most when his sisters play peek-a-boo and smacks his hand on the ground or on my chest when im holding him. He's still completely mellow and rarely complains unless he is tired. He plays with his brother occasionally by pulling at his ears or sucking on his arm,elbow,head...Lately he's been saying dada quite a bit and found that he likes sleeping on his belly. All around he's a cuddle bug. Loves holding yourface and giving kisses <3
Maxi: Max is such a mommy's boy. He has to have me around 24/7 and if not, he'll cry "ma-ma". Pitiful! He loves snuggling with me too and is such a happy boy also. He also enjoy every baby food I have given him and his appetite isn't quite like Micahs, but he still loves it! He still loves playing on his back and playing with his feet/toes. He will talk your ear off with squeals and baby babbles. He's a mimicker. He also just got interested in playing with Micah. Although he tends to be a bully with him and steal his toys out of his hand or be too rough with him. But its mutual and it happens on both ends. The love he has for his sisters is amazing. They both love their sisters immensely. Max has gotten interested in crawling although he gets so mad when he cant reach something that he puts his head down and cries. He also brings joy to my life just like my other children.
( max is eating micahs toy)
Then there is my girls :D
KayBear Graduated kindergarten and is officially a little first grader. She loves holding the boys, popping out of corners and scaring them/making them laugh, you name it and she's the perfect older sister. She loves them to death and always has to tell them good morning when she wakes up. She's my dramatic little stinker and loves tall tales. She is getting so tall and so beautiful its unreal. Kay is quite the jokester and loves the spotlight.She's such a nurturing little girl and will be the best mommy one day.
Abby : Such a comedian this one is. Although she's at the "terrible 3's" and is very testy, she's a sweetheart. She also wakes up every morning and kisses the brothers good morning. Her and kayleigh love making them laugh and she's such a tomboy like I was. Leave her unattended for a few minutes and there will be quite the mess to clean up so Ive learned not to let her out of my sight for now. She starts preschool in the fall and is excited! Her and kayleigh play non stop practically til bedtime and she wouldn't have it any other way. Im so glad they have each other <3
Back when abby was a baby.
Me: My life has had many ups and downs lately. Probably more downs than ups but I've learned that nothing is more comforting than family. It doesn't matter what friends I have or who walked out/wanted out on my life, all I need is my tight knit family of 6 . They bring me the most sunshine ever and permeate my world with such love that I don't need anything else. To think a mothers heart can expand so much is just...well, there are no proper words to really describe or fathom it. They say things happen for a reason. I'll have to agree with you. My inner happiness is radiating like I never thought it could . Look at what I have to be thankful for!
My beautiful sister and the boys.
Grandma and Max
My beautiful niece and Abby <3
-Thank you everyone who reads this and follows me on my journey. My life isn't perfect , and i know I'm far from being myself but I am who I am and thats all that matters. I am a mother and wife first, friend always and just me. <3
As I patiently awaited on the OR table for the arrival of my boys two things happened :
1. I,for the first time during the pregnancy, got uber emotional
2. Started being a little scared that the taking care of 2 babies was fastly approaching.
Then it happened...
I heard the tiniest of tiny cries illuminate my soundwaves. My son Max met the outside world.
then came
Yet another....
Micah arrived safely. I cannot tell you the overflowing emotions that wept through me in an instant. First, fear if anything that my undercooked boys were alright...then curiosity because I had to see who it was that occupied my belly for so long. Time ticked in slow motion until I got to see their faces. pure beauty they were. In a matter of 34weeks, I was a mother of 4.
skipping ahead and looking into my boys eyes now, it's hard to believe they've grown and defeated some of the obstacles they had.
6 months have literally flown by faster than I could've ever imagined. Bitter sweet it is considering they are the last of my babies. Time has changed their faces and I see their characteristics/personalities shining through those beautiful little smiles.
There has been many ups and downs in the process of them reaching a half a year old. Now that I look at it, the only down really was the sleep and getting them on schedule. Now, it seems easier. I did suffer postpartum depression and battled if for 3 months when one day it decided to rear its ugly head in my direction. I tried fighting it off myself but ended up getting entangled and lost in its darkness. I finally went to the doctor and am doing just fine now. Ive known from the past exactly what it was because unfortunately, I've battled it numerous times. No worries, I am ok now!
I'm gladly enjoying my boys. They are becoming so fun! They now notice each other smile frequently. Max is 13 lbs and 12 ounces and although you have to work on getting him to smile,once he does its a bashful/shy smile that just melts you instantly. He's very hands on and loves grabbing everything but mostly my face. He's perfectly content on laying on his back or his side to play with his toys. He used to be the one that would cry all the time but now he's so content and will just sit in his chair any play with his toys. He's such a mommies boy and has to have me in plain view or else he will freak. Max Loves baby food and is quite the wiggly boy!!!!
Micah is 14 lbs 2 ounces and such a charmer. You don't have to work much to get him to smile a huge smile and you. He loves just about anyone who talks to him and is extremely mellow. He entertains himself and is such a rolley polley. You cant leave him in his chair without buckling him in or he will wiggle his way practically out on the floor. He's working on perfecting rolling over which is awesome considering they are both technically developmentally only at 5 months. He showed us his laugh, which is precious and is such a daddies boy. He loves sitting on daddies lap and just chilling. He also loves baby food.
I've been making an effort to getting out of the house more and enjoying life with my beautiful children. Each and everyone is so precious to me. My oldest, Kayleigh is turning into such a little woman already. She loves changing her brothers diapers and helping me bathe them. She and Abigail kiss them good morning every single day and the way their brothers look at them is just precious. They all love each other very much. Abigail is doing great also, she plays well with kayleigh and is speaking great! She'll start preschool in the fall and that has me excited for her!
6 months have flown by and soon my little princes will be 1. I love having 4 kids and twins at that.
I'm sorry it has taken so long to get an update with everyone. Life is busy, I'm constantly on go and Its hard to make a video or blog. Now that they are getting much older it should be easier. Thank you all for sticking with me and feel free to leave some love or ask anything you are curious about!!!
Micah
Max
xoxo
Lia
Holy moly it's about dang time I updated this! I apologize for not posting sooner like I was supposed to but stuff got crazy for awhile as you can imagine with 4 kids.
The boys are officially 4 months old already and I am in disbelief that that much time has passed. It has gone so quickly and they have changed so so much!! They almost look totally different from when they first came home as tiny little peanuts with such skinny little limbs. Now, they are plumped out and completely healthy!
My daily routine with 4 kids since I am sure you guys are curious!!! Well my morning goes like this:
Wake up at 6:45 and change the boys, pump, wake up my husband and kayleigh, feed the boys and put them down for a nap that lasts about an hour-hour and a half, feed abigail and change her diaper, (kayleigh is in school by 7:53, my husband takes her) and enjoy a cup of coffee and some breakfast. THEN they usually wake up for lunch, i do the whole pumping thing again because well, with two its easier. The whole "feed them at the same time on your boob" is...impossible. Let me tell you. I've tried every position possible and it just doesnt work for me. They will nurse during the night time though which is nice. Anyways theyll wake up and play before they eat then its basically non stop all over again! No time to rest unless they are sleeping...which lately it has been on me otherwise they wont sleep at all...yikes.
Its busy but I dont mind it a bit. I am into a routine so stuff is slowly starting to get done. My goal everyday is to at least do one thing like laundry or dishes...or even sweep that way its not too disgusting in this house.
As for the boys:
Micah is about 13 pounds now and long!!! He has such an appetite and eats about 5 ounces every 3 hours! Hard to keep up with. He sleeps well through the night and only wakes up maybe twice. He loves sleeping on his side and coos and smiles constantly. He is such a happy, mellow baby!! He recognized his brother and his toes this month to which he loves staring and smiling at both. If you put him too close to max he will try and eat his arm. It's kind of funny. Micah has also surprised me by learning how to roll over from his tummy to his back! He almost mastered back to tummy but not quite yet!
Little Max is 11lbs and 12 ounces. He is not much behind is brother anymore and is also such a happy thriving baby! He smiles alot and although he doesnt coo just at much, I can tell within his smiles that he is perfectly content when mommy sings to them. He is a wiggler but loves to sleep on his back. He used to be very vocal but had mellowed out quite a bit. they are getting easier which is a blessing!!! He Hasnt showed interest in rolling yet which is kind of nice because with Micah alone, I cant leave him in a bouncer or on the couch without him trying to roll off! Two at once would just be nuts....Cant wait to start the crawling!!! AHHHHHHH!!!
The girls are doing great! Kayleigh is excelling in school and at a first grade reading level and Abigail is talking way way more now and is still...a pill LOL.
Here are some more recent pictures :D
Micah Up top
Mr.Max :D
Mommy and Max
Mommy and Micah
I hope you enjoyed this post as much as I loved writing it. I am blessed every single day and love my kids more and more each time I look into their eyes. I wouldn't change anything for the world and thank you for sticking by me :D
xoxo
Lia
